I've been feeling really low lately [kind of a rant]?

I'm 13 years old and I feel depressed all the time. Not mentally, but.. I don't know. I feel like I have no friends at all. I have really bad social anxiety, and I can't talk to anyone about it. People think I'm a freak because I always stutter and can't hold a conversation at all. People who I thought were my ';friends'; ignore me after a while and start to talk to new people. I'm basically alone all the time, and always feeling paranoid that someone's looking at me. My parents don't understand me at all. They are on my back about everything 24/7. They're perfectionists and expect perfect grades from me. I recently got 2 B's on my report card and my parents got so mad they tried to beat me with a plastic chair. My dad, especially, likes to embarrass me in public about my social anxiety. When I see someone from school, he'll be like, ';Why didn't you say hi to them, huh? Look at those girls with all their friends. And you have no friends at all.'; And he'd just glare at me and shake his head and it makes me feel like crap. My mom is also always going on about how I'll never make it in life and go to a good college and stuff. And she just starts screaming and it's really scary. I just don't know what to do with myself. I don't want to commit suicide or anything, but sometimes I'd just like to think about doing that and everyone feeling guilty about it. What can I do? Like I don't want to just ';talk to my parents'; about how I'm feeling. That just doesn't work for them.I've been feeling really low lately [kind of a rant]?
It is perfectly normal to feel socially anxious at 13. It's probably more abnormal not to feel a little anxious. Your hormones are going all over the place and you are making the transition from little girl to teenager. All of the things you're feeling are normal and natural. Just be patient with yourself and learn to give yourself the ';pats on the back'; and encouragement that you're not getting from your parents. They probably just don't realize how much they're not helping by their pressure and behavior. I'm sure they just want to see you happy and healthy. Take baby steps and you will begin to get more comfortable around people. Maybe you could talk to a school counselor.I've been feeling really low lately [kind of a rant]?
pray go to God
Oh my, I feel the exact same way =(