I don't know about you guys but....(enter rant)?

I need to be loved. Down.





I mean I need a man. Call me pathetic. Call me what you will, but at least I know what I want. What I NEED.





I've never had a guy in my life. Ever. No one that was ever serious, only people that had crushes on me and barely attempted anything on me.





I must say I'm completely infatuated with this spanish guy right now but he barely knows I'm there. He just looks at me as a distant friend. We met a year ago and he says hi to me sometimes but that's it. He never asks me how I'm doing. Ever. Although I wouldn't have that much to say.





But I can feel him. I just want to love him. Deeply.





Have you ever wanted something so bad? Something so distant and nothing else really seemed to matter?





That's kind of where I'm at.





Through all of the emptiness I still have love for myself but I have issues. We all do. I don't doubt that one.





I think I'd make a decent boyfriend because I'm affectionate as hell, attentive and loving. I can be a bit judgmental at times, but like I said, no one's perfect.





And it's not just about sex. I mean I need that too, but I actually want to grind and kiss him the most. That'd be the greatest.





So how did you guys (and girls) do it? How did you wait for the right one? I don't want anyone else, not even a celeb this bad.





I mostly post answers to people's questions helping them the best I can, and posting occasional questions about something random. But this. This one's gotta count. Give me all you got.





The guy I'm crushing on is Luis, BTW and he barely knows I'm alive. It's hard because when I see him I just want him close but I don't act like it. I don't know what I'm doing but I want him. Badly.





You can call me desperate but tell me you've been there?





(Oh. And I doubt it matters but I'm 24 and he's like....32ish.)I don't know about you guys but....(enter rant)?
Lukas. shut up. Being gay is as normal as people like you being ignorant.








honestly, all you can do is just get to know him! it won't go anywhere if you don't. take a chance before you regret it! and don't be afraid to fall. if it doesn't work out, then he's not the one for you.





or if you really think he is, just keep trying.





good luck!I don't know about you guys but....(enter rant)?
Being gay is against god.


Sorry, Its just a warning.


Get Help.
%26lt;sigh%26gt; sounds like you got it bad. i hope you do get up the courage to make your feelings known. what's that old saying?.....';it's better to have loved and lost than never to have tried.';





much love and hope. pj